Tonight, as I was holding my 7 month old who is just learning to crawl and take interest in things, I began to find it increasingly difficult to get his attention. Of course I was excited to be with my son – I had been at work all day, then he was with his grandparents until my ride came home from her cake decorating class (she rocks btw) which was around 8pm – needless to say, I was more than anxious to see him. But as I was holding him, I realized that even though I was focused on desiring to be with him and express my love for him, he was incredibly distracted by the television remote. No matter how much I talked to him, redirected him in my lap, tried to get his focus, all he would give his focus to was my remote.
Then the Lord spoke to me. “Son, how does it feel to want to spend time with your son, show love to him, desire to be the focus of his unconditional attention and affection – but then realize that all he is interested in is daddies toys?”
Have you ever been in a place like that? Where God is calling you, desiring your attention, your love, your affection, but all you can focus on are the things Gods given you (or hasn’t given you)?
“Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” – Matt 6:31-33 (ESV).