And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. (John 3:19)
Reading this verse today I was astounded by my own wickedness. Even as a regenerate, blood bought, son of God, I am still in love with myself more than Jesus sometimes. That is a cold hard fact of life that I have become increasingly more aware of in myself recently that is very hard to deal with. Why am I still so easily lead astray by the deceitful schemes of the devil if I truly have the “mind of Christ” in me? Why does it seem like sometimes my proclivity is still for sin and self satisfaction instead of Jesus who came and died to wash me clean of these things? Jesus is the all and all. The bread of life of which I can feed and feed, and be truly fully satisfied yet righteously hunger for more. The world leaves me empty, but Jesus makes me full. Why then do I feast of the worlds death ridden bread, instead of the very bread of life, of whom all good things come?
Lord starve my heart of this world that I may come to thirst for you with an unquenchable thirst, that I may never have enough of you, and never want any of this world.